Long time, no post

Apologies that I haven't been updating recently. I'm not gonna lie, its because I couldn't find it in me to get my brain working and write something worthy. I'm gonna try my damn hardest to update more regularly from now on.

So, Halloween is getting close. Anyone dressing up this year? My friend is throwing a party which gives me an excuse to dress up in something crazy. At first, I wanted to be Alice in Wonderland. However, all the costumes I looked at on the Internet were screaming 'SLUT!'. Seriously, is it really such an effort to put on a little bit of extra material?! There's no way I'm turning up to a party looking like I've just had sexy time role play. So I am now either gonna go as a pirate or a zombie bride. I can't really decide which one though. Here are the pictures...




The bride dress is long but if I get it, I'll cut it up so its short. I'm thinking my aim is to make it look a bit like the emergency dress?



I really hope it turns out okay. I don't really want to spend a lot of money.

It was nice knowing you all.

Sorry guys and gals for not updating recently. I'm not gonna lie, I was too lazy to write anything lengthy so I thought I would just leave it until I have something worthy to write about.

I'm back at the hell hole some people may call school. In my opinion, Friday is such a dumb day to go back. We might as well get an extra day off and then go back on Monday. I just really don't see the point. I'm kinda hoping I get the same timetable as last year just so that I don't need to learn it. I'm gonna try my very best this year to be confident and open to everyone. I really need to get some new friends. I've been with the same small group for far too long and I just need some new people to hang out with! Obviously, I would never abandon my existing friends. I just think it would be nice to get to know others a bit more. I'm going into year 11 this year which is going to be a toughie for sure. I've taken a couple of GCSE's early but I'm pretty certain I might retake science. If I don't get an F, I'll be very shocked. I'm in a pretty high set but my exam results can be really shocking at times. I pretty much forget everything as soon as I've finished learning it. *sigh* I really hope tomorrow isn't full of fail. It doesn't help the fact that I have a counselling appointment straight after. This means I have to get on a crowded bus full of loud idiotic retards (not literally retards of course. That would just be mean.) and then go to a place which I don't even know the way to. How terrific. I think I might die tomorrow.

My friend Rach (happy belated birthday if you're reading this) is having a fancy dress party this year for her birthday get together. At first, I had no idea what I could go as especially as it's only next week. But after chatting on the phone with Serra (my best friend who I love very very much) we decided that we wanted to do a joint costume. So in the end we decided to go as cave women. Hopefully this Saturday we're gonna take a trip to either Oprington or Bromley so we can search for a fabric store to buy some leopard print stuff and fur (Yes, we're hand making our costumes. We're THAT cool). I doubt I will be contributing much to the actual making of the costumes as sewing isn't exactly my forte but I shall definitely be there to advise her and help with the less important things. These costumes better look good. That reminds me, I need to search for a inflatable club online so we can go around and hit people with them. Haha..

I wrote a couple of versus to a song/poem the other day. It's not finished yet but I thought I'd post what I have so far.


I'm looking at the wilted flower
curled up on the ground.
she ain't so radiant. No not anymore.
the water is rising, slowly drowning
any satisfaction she might have owned.

Crowds gather and mutter under their breath.
What a state she is. What a shame.
the rain is washing away the dirt on her hands.
she glares up at them, a look they'll never forget.
her eyes are saying do you really care?



Oooh I forgot, I haven't posted the one I wrote a few weeks ago either. I'm quite proud of this one actually. Here it is:


I wander down the street I thought I had forgotten.
The chalk marks are fading
just like the memory of your once friendly face.
The old days must be here,
but hiding in the cracks in the pavements.

Dust gathers in those corners,
its such a shame.
A shame that the sun refuses to meet the eyes of tattered pasts.
they're locked away in the shadows.

You drove too fast.
You changed our lives.
the life I do not recognize anymore.
The cars will crash.
the debris will rest.
And all will be soon forgotten.

If there's prize for rotten judgement, I guess I've already won that.

I've been having a lack of inspiration for my blog entries recently. It most probably because I haven't been doing anything interesting in my spare time. If I'm honest, I would rather stay at home than go out. I've always been like that and sometimes I think that its a bad thing. If people don't like me because of it, screw them.

I've been completely obsessed with Disney recently. I've watched 3 Disney movies in the past week and it's really amazing how they can lift up your mood. I've only been able to watch them on YouTube sadly though, cause I don't have a video player anymore and I don't have any Disney movies on DVD. The first one I watched was the Little Mermaid. This has got to be my favorite Disney movie out of all of them. It's just sooo adorable and the music is pretty awesome too. I heard that there's a Broadway version of it in NYC. I really wanna see it. I can't imagine what it would look like though. The second movie I watched was Beauty and the Beast. You really can't beat this film. I mean, a talking candlestick?! How much better can it get? The last movie I watched was Hercules. I've had 'I won't say I'm in love' in my head for days! But you know what? I actually don't care. The trash that has taken over (for example High School Musical and Hannah Montanna) has completely ruined Disney. It all used to be about princes and princesses with feel good sing along music. But now, it's just unbelievably shite! I really wish they would make classic Disney films again like they did when I was younger. I don't think I'll ever grow out of it. I would say the only downside is that it gives you false hope. I think I saw on an avatar once, 'Someone should sue Disney for making every girl think she has a prince charming'. I couldn't agree more with that statement. *sigh* If only life was like a Disney movie.

If anyone reading this thinks I'm really pathetic and babyish for loving good ol' classic Disney movies, GET BENT!

Fooking hell....

There are no words to describe how gutted I am right now. A couple of days ago I found out that paramore are playing a one off show in September so naturally I asked Rach (the best friend) if she wanted to come. Of course, she said yes and we got ourselves really excited. Tickets came out at 9:00AM today so got my dad to go on the various ticket websites and my mum to ring up the venue. THEY FUCKING SOLD OUT! Literally, it was after a couple of minutes. I really wasn't expecting not to get a ticket. The gig was 'intimate' as well which made me think that there was a small chance that I could get to meet them. Of course, that isn't going to happen anymore. Which pisses me off more is that people who don't even like the band are selling them on ebay for 8o quid. The tickets were only a fiver to begin with. Fucking twats.

FML

Oh dear....

I'm so sorry there hasn't been an update for a while. Actually, I'm sure that most of you don't care considering no one even comments (meh) but I was visiting my grandparents for a few days and never really got the chance to come online. Luckily, I'm now back which means I will be writing a lot more.

I headed into London on Monday with my parents to watch The Woman in Black. Now plays aren't usually my thing (especially the ones that don't have any music), but I was actually pleasantly surprised. Here's the plot for y'all.

Eel Marsh House stands tall, gaunt and isolated, surveying the endless flat salt marshes beyond the Nine Lives Causeway, somewhere on England's bleak East Coast. Here Mrs Alice Drablow lived - and died - alone. Young Arthur Kipps, a junior solicitor, is ordered by his firm's senior partner to travel up from London to attend her funeral and then sort out all her papers. His task is a lonely one, and at first Kipps is quite unaware of the tragic secrets which lie behind the house's shuttered windows. He only has a terrible sense of unease. And then, he glimpses a young woman with a wasted face, dressed all in black, at the back of the church during Mrs Drablow's funeral, and later, in the graveyard to one side of Eel Marsh House. Who is she? Why is she there? He asks questions, but the locals not only cannot or will not give him answers - they refuse to talk about the woman in black, or even to acknowledge her existence, at all. So, Arthur Kipps has to wait until he sees her again, and she slowly reveals her identity to him - and her terrible purpose.

The Woman In Black treads in the footsteps of the classic ghost story, following the tradition of Charles Dickens and M.R James, of Henry James and Edith Wharton. It is not a horror story or a tale of terror, yet the events build up to a horrifying climax and instil a sense of horror. It relies on atmosphere, a vivid sense of place, on hints and glimpses and suggestions, on what is shadowy, heard and sometimes only half-seen, to chill the reader's blood to the marrow and make reading the book alone at night inadvisable for the faint-hearted.

The theatre was really small but I think that added to the intimacy effect. It really felt like you were part of the story. Lets just say, that I found hard to sleep that night. I would definitely recommend it.

I'm gonna leave it there, my fingers are tired, haha.
Laters.

Hair dye, 2 weeks of hell and feeling rejected.

Bonjour!

Well well well, I'll be honest, I haven't really got a lot of juicy stuff to put in this next entry. I guess holidays aren't too good for my social life. I end up getting up at midday and spending the day watching TV or on the computer. Meh...I should probably do some exercise.

I've been planning on dying my hair for quite a long time now but at the same time I've been avoiding it. I am so paranoid about getting an allergic reaction to the dye. I mean, I've seen all these horrible stories in the newspaper about people nearly dying because they've coloured their hair and I just wouldn't know whether to take the risk or not. However, I brought some washout dye today and hopefully I'll colour it sometime this week. If I don't post within the next few days, you'll know that I'm dead.

Speaking of this week (and the next in fact) my parents have their holiday from work. This means there will be non stop nagging, and annoyance. It is obviously going to be the best two weeks of my life! Not. I don't mind spending time with them but I much prefer being home alone. That way, you can play music as loud as you want and walk around naked (not that I would do that of course XD ).

You know what? Friends really piss me off. One in particular (not mentioning names) is seriously getting on my titties. She keeps 'forgetting' to invite me to things. How the hell can you forget to invite one of your best friends who you have known for other ten years?! From what I can remember, I haven't done anything to upset her at all! Meh, I really don't know why I bother.

Anyway dudes and dudettes I'm gonna leave it there.
Laters xxx

Simming it.

Yo dudes,

Well today was very productive, not. I spent the day with Rach playing the Sims 3 (she hasn't got it yet and she was dying to play it). The game is strangely addicting. I love to make up little stories in my head and making my sims play along with it. Y'know I really suck at making guy sims. They either look like girls or they look really podgy and fugly. I can never get them to look 'attractive'. Meh, never mind eh? We made simselves and after we made Josh and Zac Farro (yum) to be our boyfriends. How sad are we?

I'm going to do a little feature every couple of weeks or so. Basically, I'm gonna put my current favorite song. Soooo here's current favorite song number one!

Growing Old- Parade the Day
The light from the east coast
off your eyes screams please don't go,
cause I can't do this alone
And tonight, as I leave notes
on the side, of your bed post
they all shows signs of hope and you say....

Sing to me slowly the words that you wrote me
each line racing through your mind
will you wait for me, after I fall asleep?

So lets live in this day I know your dying to say it
lets just live in this moment and pretend like we own it
we will all grow older, but with you here I'll die slower

Sing to me slowly the words that you wrote me
each line racing through your mind
will you wait for me, after I fall asleep?

We will all grow older but with you here I'll die slower

Marry me on this boat tied to a rope in the ocean. So far out to sea no one will ever find us where we're going. Lets toast to the great unknown, fingerprints mark where we grew old. As I write to you knowing these notes won't find where were going

Listen to growing old HERE!

Later dudes xxx